Blessed

I am truly blessed with great friends and family! 

I was so thankful for each and every comment, text, phone call, email and private Facebook message I received in response to my last post. It makes me smile to know that I have people in my life that truly care and support me.

Cody has been amazing and even though this situation is affecting both of us - it is ultimately me that will choose what these next years will involve. The decision still isn't clear and I will be making a sacrifice no matter what we decide. 

I applied for a job last week with still no call. I will be contacting the one I've been waiting on for 3 weeks on Monday ... but I doubt I'll have an answer. 

I am starting to become at peace with the idea of staying home with the girls. It helps to know that they are actually choosing to stay home versus go to school. A part of me was so torn over the thought of taking them away from their friends. But now I realize that these few years they have been in daycare have blessed us with some amazing friendships and that won't end even if daycare does. 

It still bothers me what the future will hold in 6 years when the job search would begin all over again. Why would anyone want to hire someone with no experience plus a 6 year break? BUT...no one wants to hire me now...so at least I would have this precious time with the girls and trust that God will provide for me when the time comes. 

I'm trying to remain patient. I'm trying to keep me head clear. I'm trying not to rush a decision based on emotion. 

The ultimate goal I want to accomplish in life is to be the best mom I can be for our children. That in itself may be my answer.